Comments on: I’m still here.

By: Kenyon

Kenyon — Thu, 24 Jul 2008 20:26:00 +0000

Karen–Thanks so much for your kind words. Perhaps we may never meet face to face in this life, but we all have an obligation to keep one another focused and accountable to not “pussyfooting” around with the gospel. My prayer today is that everyone reading this post is infused with a renewed passion and determination to ACTUALLY live like Jesus Christ is alive!

mimi–Thank you too for your words. ditto for what I have said to Karen.

By: mimi

mimi — Thu, 24 Jul 2008 19:39:28 +0000

good words kenyon, i have also been guilty of pussy footing around. I am scared to speak boldly what I believe. I also had the pleasure of meeting yacouba and my life has been changed also. i have not been living as one who knows the all powerful God. i have been scared, scarce, unbelieving. not stepping out too far, because I guess i didn’t think God would be there if I did that. I am also deathly afraid of what people think of me. I want to defend that statement even as I say it, but I cannot. I don’t want to be a “jesus freak” . I have also had to ask forgiveness for my unbelief. Karen, I appreciated your honesty. I wish you lived here in tulsa we could all sit down together and have a good conversation.:)

By: Karen

Karen — Thu, 24 Jul 2008 18:15:03 +0000

Kenyon,

I want you to know that your blog is my favourite. Some that I read come across as wanting to fit a certain mold, be something like everyone else in the group they aspire to be part of. But you… you are real. I feel like there is nothing false or fake in your words; you are just being you and laying on the table what you are thinking and feeling and questioning. It makes me want to sit down with you and a coffee or a leisurely meal and have a long conversation getting to really know each other. Some of the issues/struggles you raise I feel inclined to speak into but I hold back because I really do not know you and therefore cannot understand the whole of it. It seems presumptuous to think I could have something to say. Please keep up the blog and sharing of Kenyon with your readers.

As for your question about pussyfooting with the Gospel… I think I have entered into a period that has lasted too long wherein I still believe as firmly and am sustained by faith but the passion does not burn as strong. The rest of life has taken center place. God is at the fringes. I know part of it stems from the lacking in my life of an alive church or any kind of true fellowship rooted in Christ. But I also know it cannot stay this way. I just do not know how to change it; to experience again the fire, the connection to God in every moment, the awareness of and obedience to His calling on my time. I keep recalling the words to the Laodiceans in Revelation 3:

I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of my mouth.

My life, my deeds….are they lukewarm.

I do not fear that God will spit me out but I know that I am hurting Him every minute of everyday in which I basically ignore Him and take His friendship and love for granted.